ONE STEP FORWARD, ONE STEP BACK

I'm tired.  I'm almost always tired.  I'm tired OF things, and I'm tired 
BECAUSE of things.  I don't sleep well.  Last night, my legs were aching 
when I went to bed.  That happens a lot, and has happened a lot for 
years now.  Some Ibuprofen works okay there, but, by the time it kicks 
in, I'm too wound up to sleep -- the mind just keeps racing, you know?

I suppose I have worries.  I suppose I have frustrations and depressions 
by turns -- or, more often, in teams.  To actually be productive with 
the sleepless hours of the night would be the most efficient approach to 
this; that is, how do I USE the insomnia, rather than simply endure it?  
Most often, I'm too tired to concentrate on creative projects in wee 
hours, but am also way too jumpy to lay down.  And the essential problem 
here is that I should at least be TRYING to get sleepy.  All I see left 
right now, is to bull my way through the fatigue, and really try and 
work.  I probably won't get much done, but everything helps, and, 
anyway, it's really all about the sleep.

I'll be revamping the Shotgun Schedule soon, so that might help a bit 
right there.  Many projects on there are no longer relevant, so I can 
start going after other, maybe bigger, fish.  Gotta keep plugging away 
anyway, right?  I mean, I may be tired, but I'm not dead yet.

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Wed. Nov. 3, 2010